21st June 2008
I saw something which blew my mind away tonight and did something very powerful to my spirit, I believe something healed because of it . . . . .
Throughout my life I have turned that question over and over in my mind. How could an all powerful God allow such wanton cruelty to be meted out to me over such a long time scale?? And I've had no answers to that, none that have satisfied the deep need to know inside. However, 2 words keep coming to me “free will”. God gives us all free will, in a way he tied His own hands behind His own back. Hmm!!
Leaving that thought floating around in the ether . . . .
Jesus gave me a picture of when I was 19. I was lying on the floor being beaten and kicked. And Jesus was lying behind me with His arms around me and He never let go. He was taking the beating and the kicking too, He was trying to take some of it off me, and boy it hurt Him even more than it hurt me.
Now that completely blew me away!!