I am a survivor of extremely severe ritualistic childhood abuse and sadistic systematic torture. Without God's intervention in my life I wouldn't be here - NOW is the time for me to tell MY story by speaking the TRUTH about MY life. I will be silenced no more! On this blog I share MY life, MY healing journey; helpful quotes/stuff I come across and MY thoughts along the way. The more I speak out the more liberated I am from the shame and trauma of the abuse. My broken wings are gradually being restored. This blog has helped me begin to get my voice back and documents the journey God is taking me on to heal me from the trauma and damage caused by that most appalling abuse.

Saturday, 27 June 2009

MY DAUGHTER I THINK ONLY GOOD THINGS

My daughter I think only good things
When I look upon you my beloved
You are so very precious to me
I cannot think bad things about you

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

I cannot think bad things about you
Because you are so very precious to me
I think only wonderful things about you
When I look at you and admire your beauty

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

I think positive life giving thoughts over you
I speak positive life giving words over you
I plant positive life giving thoughts in your mind
I touch you with positive life giving touch

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

Do not fear my love, my beloved daughter
Do not run away from my love my precious
Receive all the love that I have to give you
For it will heal and restore your broken places

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

You are accepted completely my treasure
Please receive all the love and acceptance
I wish to bestow upon you, my beloved
Don’t board your heart up in fear

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

You are my mighty deliverer and healer
Restorer of body, mind and emotions
You adorn with me precious jewels
From heaven’s own jewellery room

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

You are my help and my mighty avenger
You are my defender and my justifier
You dress me in shimmering white
And put beautiful robes upon me

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

You take my shame and give me dignity
You take my pain and give me beauty
You take me in your arms and lead me
In a very graceful delightful dance

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure

Thank you for your precious love my Jesus
Lover of my soul, my husband, my friend
I love to sing and dance with you
I open my heart to your love for me

I love you so very dearly and deeply
You are loved, so loved, so very loved
So preciously loved, deeply loved
I am passionately loving you my beloved
I think and speak only good things about you
My love, my beloved, my treasure


26 June 2009

I AM YOUR BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY

I am YOUR beautiful butterfly
I am flying graceful and free
Fragile and delicate
Majestic and beautiful
Intricate and adored
Admired and loved

Made to be me, just me
In all my wonderful array
Of beautiful amazing colours
I am breaktakingly beautiful
I am so graceful and inspiring
I am so free, free to fly, to be

I am blue, green, purple and maroon
Maroon, blue, green and purple
Purple, maroon, blue and green
Green, blue, maroon and purple
Intricately coloured and designed
The colours you have given me

Designed to be free to flutter
Designed to fly high in the sky
I am YOUR beautiful butterfly
I am one of a kind
Unique and chosen
To reflect my makers glory

To spread my wings
Wide to the sun
And let my colours shine
In all their glorious
Technicolour design
I am your beautiful butterfly

Cared for and so admired
By you, my creator
I spread my wings for you
So you can see all my colours
And the intricate design
And be amazed yet again

I love to ever so gently land
on the end of your finger
knowing you won’t blow me off
or brush me off either
I love to see your smile
As you admire my beauty

I am YOUR beautiful butterfly
Fragile and delicate
Majestic and beautiful
Intricate and adored
Admired and loved
Graceful and inspiring

I AM YOUR BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY

26 June 2009

Wednesday, 17 June 2009

A LITTLE REVELATION

He wants you to receive that all you see about the butterfly is how He sees you

Oh right, so every time I look at the butterfly and marvel, He does the same when He sees me

yes

wow

that is exactly what the butterfly means and how he sees you

wow, I know it is more than just a lovely symbol, it is so much more than that

He said He was turning you into that butterfly right?

yes

ok, now you also have the revelation that He marvels at you

yes wow

the creator of the universe marvels at you Fiona, you have captivated Him with your love

yes I am reminded of that verse - The King is enthralled with your beauty

if you can go to the book of Song of Songs and read that, it will show you how He loves you

ok

I bet no one ever read from that book to abuse you

Nope, it did not exist

then it is a safe book in the bible to start with

right yes

ask and He will show you about that book how He sees you

ok I will, I use the Amplified version mostly and I have New Living Translation too

that is ok, read them both

ok I will do that

15 June 2009

Friday, 5 June 2009

GOD GIVES ME A BUTTERFLY

As I was walking through town today I walked past an art shop. In the doorway was a stand with loads of stick on sun catchers.

My eye fell on a beautiful butterfly and I could not believe my eyes.

I was looking at a dark blue, purple and green and pinkish butterfly. It is not as intricate in its design or in how the colours blend in and out of one another and virtually the same colours as the one that Jesus has been working with me on in the spirit.

I knew I just had to stop by and buy it.

The butterfly is stuck on my bathroom window which gets the most sun.

It is serving as a great visual reminder of what God is doing in my life. A wonderful visual reminder of all Jesus has shown me and all that He has promised me.

And now there is a photo of it just above my lead blog post.

28 May 2009