I read this and thought WOW, THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT IT WAS LIKE.
The only thing I would add is that as well as not feeling safe in my own bed I did not feel safe in my own home either.
Anyway, here comes the quote:-
"The devastation of incest is powerful because it is set within a constellation of family emotions and conflicts. For the child, there is no stranger to run from, no home to run to. The child cannot feel safe in their own bed. The victim must learn to live with it."
- Susan Forward: Betrayal of Incest, Borrowed from "Overcoming Sexual Abuse"