I am a survivor of extremely severe ritualistic childhood abuse and sadistic systematic torture. This blog has helped me get my voice back and documents the journey I'm on to heal from the trauma and damage caused by that appalling abuse. Now is the time for me to tell of MY experience by speaking the truth about MY life. I will be silenced no more! On this blog I share MY life, MY healing journey; helpful quotes/stuff I come across and MY thoughts along the way. The more I speak out the more liberated I am from the shame and trauma of the abuse. My broken wings are gradually being repaired. Without God in my life I wouldn't still be here. But somehow, I keep on staying alive, surviving and rarely, occasionally, living a little!

Thursday, 23 September 2010


It came to me the other day that in my quest for truth and an end to all the lies, pretence, play acting and bullshit that my life has been full of, I can do that for ME and I need to do that for ME.

But when it comes to my abusers, well that is a very different story.

They have been living bold as brass for all these years in lies which to them are the truth; living in an absurd reality where lies became the truth and the truth became lies.

I cannot change them but only challenge them with the truth which they can choose to deny or not, it is their choice.

But I choose to live the rest of MY life in truth regardless of what my abusers choose to do.


Eve said...

You go girl! The truth is what sets you free! That is for sure! Don't be afraid anymore. EVER! Just tell it. Darkness flees when light is present.


I wrote this the day before I received the shattering phone call, it's like I had a premonition and didn't know it!!