I've survived by pretending all was well (a learned behaviour from childhood) when all wasn't well, wearing a false smile when inside my heart was broken, I stayed alive just!
Now I'm being real, being honest, tearing those walls down and saying how it really was and how it really is, there is healing in that.
It is so healing to now be able to be real.
Now I'm learning there's a new way and that's learning to live not just survive, not just exist.
It's such a relief to finally be able to tell the truth, to finally be able to be real!!
I am a survivor of extremely severe ritualistic childhood abuse and sadistic systematic torture. Without God's intervention in my life I wouldn't be here - NOW is the time for me to tell MY story by speaking the TRUTH about MY life. I will be silenced no more! On this blog I share MY life, MY healing journey; helpful quotes/stuff I come across and MY thoughts along the way. The more I speak out the more liberated I am from the shame and trauma of the abuse. My broken wings are gradually being restored. This blog has helped me begin to get my voice back and documents the journey God is taking me on to heal me from the trauma and damage caused by that most appalling abuse.