I've survived by pretending all was well (a learned behaviour from childhood) when all wasn't well, wearing a false smile when inside my heart was broken, I stayed alive just!
Now I'm being real, being honest, tearing those walls down and saying how it really was and how it really is, there is healing in that.
It is so healing to now be able to be real.
Now I'm learning there's a new way and that's learning to live not just survive, not just exist.
It's such a relief to finally be able to tell the truth, to finally be able to be real!!
I am a survivor of extremely severe ritualistic childhood abuse and sadistic systematic torture. This blog has helped me get my voice back and documents the journey I'm on to heal from the trauma and damage caused by that appalling abuse. Now is the time for me to tell of MY experience by speaking the truth about MY life. I will be silenced no more! On this blog I share MY life, MY healing journey; helpful quotes/stuff I come across and MY thoughts along the way. The more I speak out the more liberated I am from the shame and trauma of the abuse. My broken wings are gradually being repaired. Without God in my life I wouldn't still be here. But somehow, I keep on staying alive, surviving and rarely, occasionally, living a little!