I met with 'T' for the first time today. She is a qualified counsellor who gives her time free to a local voluntary organisation which provides therapies at a nominal fee for people on benefits in my town. I paid a fiver for my hour with her, which is a really good deal.
'T' is the first qualified counsellor I've met as a patient in the mental health scene.
She is a petite retired lady. She made me feel like I was really tall. I'm used to feeling really short. It felt really bizarre to be with someone much shorter than me!! I am amazed at the ground we covered during our "getting to know you" session. I could see a huge difference in how she worked with me compared to how my CPN 'K' works with me.
Rather than working on the details of the abuse which I do with 'K', me and 'T' are going to be working on self-esteem, self-worth issues, personal identity, who am I? Which is also made more complex because of the DID. We'll be working on how the abuse affects how I see myself and relate to the world around me and see where that leads us.
I feel positive about this development. I like 'T' and was stunned at how easy I found it to talk to her. 'T' is happy to see me on an open-ended weekly basis and see how we do. She seems to know what she's doing. I was really impressed by her observations and comments during our session today. It felt good and I felt very supported by her.
I am a survivor of extremely severe ritualistic childhood abuse and sadistic systematic torture. Without God's intervention in my life I wouldn't be here - NOW is the time for me to tell MY story by speaking the TRUTH about MY life. I will be silenced no more! On this blog I share MY life, MY healing journey; helpful quotes/stuff I come across and MY thoughts along the way. The more I speak out the more liberated I am from the shame and trauma of the abuse. My broken wings are gradually being restored. This blog has helped me begin to get my voice back and documents the journey God is taking me on to heal me from the trauma and damage caused by that most appalling abuse.