I am a survivor of extremely severe ritualistic childhood abuse and sadistic systematic torture. This blog has helped me get my voice back and documents the journey I'm on to heal from the trauma and damage caused by that appalling abuse. Now is the time for me to tell of MY experience by speaking the truth about MY life. I will be silenced no more! On this blog I share MY life, MY healing journey; helpful quotes/stuff I come across and MY thoughts along the way. The more I speak out the more liberated I am from the shame and trauma of the abuse. My broken wings are gradually being repaired. Without God in my life I wouldn't still be here. But somehow, I keep on staying alive, surviving and rarely, occasionally, living a little!

Friday, 19 July 2013


I had to visit the dentist today and it was daunting going knowing it would involve preparation of a chipped tooth for a crown and then doing a 2-stage impression.

Impressions have always been a source of major trauma as I cannot cope with someone putting something in my mouth without seriously gagging.

So today felt very daunting and I was really stressed when I arrived. But I was to be amazed at how well the appointment went.

She was able to give me and injection, work on the tooth and to the impression all without my gagging. I lay in the chair focusing on my breathing and counting in my head amazed and flabbergasted that I was NOT gagging at all.

It shows that the hard work I've been doing in counselling and therapy has paid off and some huge healing has happened.

I enjoyed how good it felt not to be gagging and in trauma but calmly lying there counting and breathing. Wow, it felt so good!!!!

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